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now protaganist does not allow us to share in his disapointment.
there is no cute tale or clever metaphore to allow us to share his experience.
all that needs to be known is contained within the word itself.
it is long
complicated
and apprehension of the latter half leaves us lingering gingerly on the only comfortable part.
the begining.
before disapointment is disapointment.
